Thursday, 20 April 2017

What does my MS feel like for me?


(Originally posted: 25 January 2017)

Mal's Current MS Symptoms

NB. every single person with MS will experience a different set of symptoms - no two MS-ers are the same!

NB. This post is not a "pity-party/woe-is-me" thing, as I'm simply sharing a very brief insight into some of the reasons as to why I may act so "up-and-down" from time to time.

▶◯▶ Try picking-up a wet cake of soap whilst wearing a wet plastic oven-mitt - you get the idea. That's about the best way to describe how my MS is affecting me in my hands.

It's not a loss of muscle strength, grip, or motor skills. It's not painful. It's this strange pins'n'needles/tingling/numbness makes it a weird feeling trying to... pick-up a dropped pen off the floor... pick-up soap in the shower... putting a key in a lock... typing... pointing and double-clicking a mouse... doing up shirt buttons... writing... tying shoelaces... pegging washing to a clothesline... sewing (hand and machine... tho I haven't tried, yet!)... turning the pages of a book... getting a pill out of a bottle... picking up a dropped credit card/piece of paper off the floor... wiping my butt (lol)... I have to concentrate when using a sharp knife, like when chopping veggies etc, just ordinary day-to-day things like that. Just general clumsiness (more than normal, that is). I have the sensation of hot and cold (thankfully), but the effects make things feel kinda "slippery" or "spongy" to my touch (it's weird to try to explain it). Medically, it's known as "Paresthesia".
  • Pins and needles
  • Numbness
  • Tingling
  • Buzzing
  • Vibrating
  • Throbbing
  • Slippery
  • Spongy
Vary rarely, I also experience slight hand tremors... but I've known of those for years.

I also occasionally get unexpected spots of itchiness, for no apparent reason.


Playing guitar with MS is a challenge, let's admit it. But I can do it, albeit pretty clumsily. It's hard to describe, but it's like playing by rote... my brain tells my left-fingers how to finger a chord/play a series of notes, but the fingers don't always land exactly where they're supposed to... from years of playing, my fingers kind-of automatically know where they should go! That's the 'playing by rote' bit, I think.

A few weeks ago, when things started to 'come a whole lot better' again, I remember smiling happily during a band rehearsal (yes, I am playing jazz with Pengopuss again - thank you, guys!), as I told the others that "My fingers hurt! That means I can feel them!" It was a huge improvement to how it was a few weeks earlier!


▶◯▶ My MS is also slightly affecting my left foot (about 1 step in 10, my left foot doesn't 'rise' as well as it should)... sometimes, I seem to "roll" as I walk! It's called "foot drop". I'll use a walking stick sometimes now, for a longer walk - "just in case..."


▶◯▶ My sense of balance is a little bit out as well... if I stand still, I will sway very slightly (more than normal, that is!) No, I am not drunk. It's just another of my MS symptoms that I've become more aware of, as has my neurological team too. Now, when I'm standing to play guitar, I have a chair handy, just-in-case... it's the same reason why I'll use a walking stick, during a longer walk - "just in case."


▶◯▶ Sometimes, I feel extremely fatigued... the sort of mental and physical tiredness / weariness / exhaustion that doesn't necessarily go away after a good sleep. Not always sleeping well doesn't help, either.


▶◯▶ The dizzies / the spins are different again... as are the occasional "brain fogs" and "brain zaps".


▶◯▶ For me, finding a sense of balance feels harder some days more than others. I'm not talking about balancing life and work priorities - we all deal with those. It's finding a positive balance between all my varied other health issues.


▶◯▶ NOTE: My MS symptoms will randomly come-and-go over my lifetime. It's called "Relapse and Remission".


▶◯▶  MS Lifestyle Considerations
              MS and Heat 



When I was in hospital for five days (back in early December 2017), I was on high-level steroids (to reduce the auto-immune symptoms), including a "lumbar puncture" (no fun, I assure you!). My symptoms at that time were: My whole right arm, from elbow to hand, was quite numb and useless. It affected me all the up to my elbow (on my right arm), my left hand/fingertips, across my torso-front (chest), the inside of both knees, and the tips of my toes. It even affected the way I walked - the inner-knee numbness made me roll like an old sailor a bit, when I walked - that made me laff!

Thank goodness that now (c. 6 weeks later) I'm only experiencing pins and needles in both my hands. Everything else cleared away, after the steroid treatment.
So now, even typing can be a challenge! Typos are common - like right now, using my laptop (I don't have a smartphone or handheld device) - thank goodness for spellcheckers (which find most of my "dizzy-fingers" typos!)

I am adapting to it reasonably well.

It's all very frustrating, but I'm not depressed or unsettled by it all, to be honest. That surprises me, but I'm fully aware that there are people with this condition who have it a LOT worse off than I ever will!






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Peas be with ewe 
Mal

2 comments:

  1. Keep on going the positive way you are well done my friend:)))

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    1. Thanks Lynn. Some days are better than others!

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