Monday, 28 September 2009


I am *NOT* going well. At all. Help, before I do something stoopid.

Nights are just the worst to be alone, when all u need is someone to talk to.

Plus I am absolutely stoney dead broke, and there's nothing I can really do about it.

Broke, as in "I'll be eating tinned beans all of this week" broke.

Peas be with ewe
Mal :)

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  1. Hey friend I know where you are coming from. Do not give up hope.

    Sorry I was not up and around to chat but I have finally got my sleep pattern back to something near "normal" and was pushing out zzz's

    Hugs and always feel free to rant is out via email to me.

  2. Ditto to what Shelley says. Big big hugs. I hope your day is much better than your night.

  3. ((((Hugs)))) wish i could help!!! If you lived close to me you would definitely have a meal everyday!

  4. What Caroline said. Life sucks sometimes. Hugs from me.

  5. Hi Mal,
    I feel like this too, from time to time. Your not alone and don't ever give up hope. This will pass, and things will look better soon.
    Wish I could do more to help, I think your an amazing friend and person. If you ever need to "talk" feel free to e-mail me. Thanks for all the kindness you have always shown me on my blog. Your a good person, with a big heart. Never forget that.

  6. The middle of the night really is a crappy time if you're thinking and cannot stop. For me it's usually around 3am. Hope you are feeling better now...

  7. I'm still not going so well, and I'm not gonna say what was going thru my mind.

    Needless to say, nobody called or rang.

  8. No doing anything stupid please - hang in there and know it will pass and you will feel better when it does. I know about the nights being too long and feeling a huge relief when at about 5am I see the light coming in the sky.

    I caught my mum with a fork in the toaster once - and stopped her - she promised never ever to ever think like this - I had to impress upon her the children she still had to care for and the grandchildren who loved her - she was so much fun when she was well...also the damage that is left to all the family - we would all have felt terrible guilt -

    I also know that when you are down no amount of talking changes how you feel - but just hang onto the fact that it will pass and life will be good again -
    take care please

  9. Hang in there Mal, it has to get better soon. Dont do anything rash. We would miss you terribly. Even if you have to be sent to the hospital, you will get better. Lots of music to write and perform yet to come...

  10. sorry to hear you've been struggling financially & emotionally .. wish I didn't know what the feels like! ltos of beans & rice here for a while & I know how old that gets. hope things take an upturn soon, gentle thoughts!