Thursday, 12 February 2009


Mozart's Piano Concerto No. 20 in D minor, K. 466 helps me stay sane, surely less stressed and more calm and rationally-minded. It's on repeat play right now, while I try to stay calm, chillax and de-stress myself. Mozart is perfect for hoping to achieve a sense of that for me, bless 'im!

I'm just not sure what my role in this band is anymore... I'm not sure if I even fit in anywhere anymore... let me sleep on it.

Hey! I'm *I'M* not allowed to have a rant and a rave on my own blog - what's the fucking point?!? Nurts to you!
Peas be with ewe
Mal :)

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  1. WHAT?!? I missed something about the band. It sounded like you guys were all doing great together now with Eddie. What happened?

  2. We ARE doing great together... but to my ears, it sounds fucking terrible!!! It aches me to say it, but it sounds absolutely awful at the moment :( It truely breaks my heart. And I just don't know what to do about it.

  3. Arrrggghhh - stop this self flagellation please - your role is simple turn up and play your guitar and have fun - the fun will erupt into great sounds in the music. Mate I am glad you are writing it down tho' I always find blogging helps and please see my response as supportive and caring

  4. I was once in a situation where I was so overwhelmed by what had just happened to me and all the change in circumstances because of it and how I would have to start from scratch and I had no idea what to do and couldn't think of anything, but couldn't stop thinking--or more precisely worrying, because every scenario I imagined presented with some major obstacle within a few seconds or less of thinking it.

    I was lying on the foot path out the front of the house I was living in, (which wasn't quite as extreme as it sounds, given the house's location), rifling through the classifieds--jobs, houses to rent, suddenly it was all going to happen suddenly--like that day. Anyway, I came up inside turned on the radio and lay down on the couch. The most divine clarinet piece came on and it so took my attention away from my mindless thoughts, I just lay there and weaved the melody line into my heart and rode along with it. Bliss and I managed to flee if only temporarily the prison of my dreary,fear-full stupid thoughts. After about ten minutes the solution to my dilemma rose up into my mind perfectly clear and perfectly formed, apparently without any effort or angst on my part at all.

    I don't know whose clarinet piece it was, something modern but not obnoxious but it was joy to my soul. Every now and then I remember that music can get me out of my head and into my heart where often everything is actually ok or better.

    Are you sure you're all perfectly in tune? Maybe practise together a few basic chords to be sure that you know what it sounds like to be in harmony together. I know that sounds very elementary, but it might work when you can all smile at the sweetness of the sound. Instead of grimacing as you appear to be doing.

  5. Blogging helps me so much when I'm going through stuff and even more helpful is knowing people are there, and that they care.

    I am here, and I care.

  6. I love Mozart...and can't wait to be able to llisten to it again..too beautiful....many memories.

    Some days are diamonds...and you know the rest of this song i am sure. I do most of my rants here too...