Tuesday, 25 November 2008

Monday Monday

Mariposa asked to hear Three High-5 moments of our lives. These could be funny, momentous, or even embarrassing.

1] The birth of my three sons. My life changed for the better the very first time I held "Mistah Bhoy" in my arms for the first time. I wept tears so deep and expressive, simply because there simply were not the words of eternal gratitude to express what I was feeling.

2] The death of my dad. Actually, I was on auto-pilot for about six-weeks afterwards... twas just my subconscious way of coping with the grief. However, one evening after a meeting I was at, I literally just lost it and had to pull the car to a complete stop.

I howled. I screamed. I slammed my fists into the wheel. "No! No! NO!" I couldn't see for the tears flooding my eyes.

Just thinking about it brings a tear to my eyes...

It passed after about 2 minutes... I guess I just really needed to let all that out (obviously), and I felt 1,000% better afterwards. I wasn't consciously not grieving for my dad before that point, I just had never experienced anything like that before, and i guess i was just coping by keeping busy. I'm not sure.

I don't think I've really ever got-over the passing of my dad. I loved him, and had no negative or hostile things to say to him the last time I saw him. I just miss him as he was always a good friend for me. I just really miss having an old mate to talk to somedays.

3] Is an incident I did in 1985, that I refuse to talk about here. Sorry, but I've gotta set some personal boundaries, even in a place like this. Needless to say it's totally negatively affected the rest of my life as a result.
Peas be with ewe
Mal :)

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  1. Oh, sorry to hear about your Dad...glad you've move on...and has so many good memories to look back with him!

    Thanks for joining Fun Monday...hope to see you next week!

  2. Yes, having your new child is incomparable,

    inconsolable, many of us -- after losing loved one. I hear ya.

    hey -- here's a hug for number 3, too!

  3. I'm so with you on 1.
    I think it's great you had such a brilliant relationship with your father. Sadly I didn't with my dad, however I was still shocked when he died so young (50).

  4. Losing a parent is something that children (even grown ones) are just not equipped to handle. I lost my dad when he was 58, and I 21. I still kind of struggle with it.
    You sound like such a great Dad. Enjoy those darling boys, they need you.
    What is Fun Monday and why wasn't I invited??? Hmmm??

  5. Thankfully I've never lost a parent yet - and dread the day.

    Whatever happened in 1985 - sorry that it had to have such a negative impact. Hopefully there have been many more positive things (like the birth of your sons) to balance it out!

  6. Yeah man. Listen to my song 'Lifeboats for the Dead' which is all about my 'closure' dream about my old man. I miss him so much. Never a day goes by when I don't think about the old boy. I loved him with all of my heart. He's been gone eleven years and it still feels like yesterday. I cry less often these days though.

  7. I can totally relate to both feeling, the overwhelming joy and love of holding your child for the first time and the grief when a parent is gone. I miss my parents...so much. My dad was my rock. I miss talking to him. Grief is so difficult.

  8. It took me a while morn my Mom at the time of her death I was to the point I want to give people $5 to just go away - I didn't but it takes time and I think we will always miss them. As for you last Item son't let the negative hold you learn and move beyond.

  9. I have not lost either of my parents yet, but I feel the same way about them as you do your dad. Not only are they my parents, but they are my friends too. I cannot imagine losing them, but I know that one day I will. I am not looking forward to that one.

    Ah - babies. Best day of my life.