Thank you

I wish I could copy-paste the amazing private chat and seperate email I wrote this morning, both with two online friends who've both pitched battle with the Black Dog.

But I can't, as this is a 'public' space. There are certain things I simply cannot or am unwilling to discuss on here. That's just the way it has to be, and I'm sure all my fellow bloggers totally appreciate what that's like with 'filtering' their own posts. No one totally shares absolutely everything about themselves in a public space like this, that's just realistic. Anyone who does (or thinks they do) is a fool. Any online blog, post whatever, is always filtered by a zillion things we want to or are unable to share about ourselves, or the situations that happen around us. We only post what we feel we can or are comfortable or able to share about online, that's just the nature of the beast.

I've been blogging for over five years now. So, after everything I have shared about myself and who I am, what makes me tick, what I have a passion and loathing for, what brings me angst... then if you don't know me by now, then you just haven't been paying attention! hahahhaaaaaaaaaaa! :D

It was that good for me to talk to those two online friends about certain specific stuff that way today. Thank you Kay and Shelley. Bless you.

I've just been doing a severe cull on my Facebook 'friends', as I'm finding some people simply don't want to communicate or share on any level about their lifes' journey, albeit talking about how many glasses of wine they've had to drink today. Life's more than just idle chit-chat, and I'm just fed-up of the brainless idle crap that goes on with a whole swag of people seemeingly endlessly on both Plurk and Facebook. I've waited and waited for people to begin to share on some deeper level, but they just don't. So I think a year is plenty long enough for me to try to get to know that small handful of people, don't you? If they don't want me to know them (or to be known), then iIm not gonna invest any more of my short time into that either. Bless 'em, but I'm not your "friend" if the communication is just a one-sided street, you know?

The flip-side of the toss is that i've experienced some amazingly in-depth challenging personal life-affirming chats, emails and online discussions with people who are willing to open up a little bit about themselves. It's been hugely beneficial to all concerned, and no confidences have been broken in the process. I guess a lot of people i've met on places like Facebook and Plurk simply use the internet on a wholly superficial, plastic faceless level... Twittering endlessly about useless trivia no-one is interested in, or just feeling the need to use the latest bit of software that comes out simply because it's new.... WTF is all that about? That's fine, but after hinting and suggesting for upto a year there's more going on they'd be willing to talk about, they just never do.

Well, it's like a piece of crude advice I once heard. It's simply this: "Fuck 'em! They're all bullshitters!" hahahahaaaa.

Lifes' too short to worry about what someone else thinks about me and all that. After five years of blogging, if they don't have a better appreciation of what makes me tick by now, then they never will, you know?

Oh, I'm just having a harmless venting rant. It's not aimed at my regulars here, ceratinly. I'm just really fed up with people talking endlessly about the mindless mundanity of life that we all experience every single day ourselves. Hell, my poop smells too, you know? lol.

Oh geebus... where did that rant come from? hahahaaa.

Oh yes... thank you to the small handful of people who realy actually do care about who I am, and make the effort (when they can... I wholly appreciate that time online is limited and condensed) to stop and interact and dialogue with me as a human being, rather than just as a faceless name on a website. Sincerely, thank you!

Peas be with ewe
Cyalayta,
Mal :)

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